suddenly the temptation to blog. like i know.. how many thousand years have i been neglecting my blog. i even forgot my user as i was trying to log in. it's hopeless. me and blogs dont spark. i thought of reviving my blog, or even creating a new one. but im too lazy. whats more, school's starting. im trying to rid myself of distractions while trying to focus on a new school year. upper secondary. wow sounds so. WOW. i remember last year, when i thought of having juniors. that was a WOW feeling too. but now, as im progressing to upper secondary next year (in a few days time), im scared. i dont know why im scared. i guess i think too much. i always do.
it just struck me that things start out really slow. as in really slow. REALLY SLOW. and i guess im so impatient that i already want to know the ending. the result. but life isn't a drama show like alot of people put it. "life is a stage".. but i guess, in my case, it isnt. if life is a stage, it's quite obvious to know whats going to happen. it's always happy endings. so predictable. but im confused. i want to know an answer. because without an answer i'll keep harping on this issue. a stupid aimless distraction, pulling me away from everything else.
i want an answer. i really do. God help me. PLEASE!
